Blond-post. A diet.

Halo, halo! My studying at the university is over now, so this is a time to think about what to wear on a graduation ceremony, and there are so many problems that I hardly can find a way out of them. The biggest problem is that I've become awfuly fat - not so fat as Jessica Simpson I guess, but still I can't find a dress, which I'll be looking perfect in! My height is just 152 cm, so an excess weight means making me looks like a hobbit with an elephant's legs. I hate diets, though I went on a diet only one time at school - my weight was 54 kilograms then. Now my weight estimates 47 kilo, but still it is too much - I can feel it as my legs get swelling.  Too hard to walk, too hard to look well in dresses and skirts...So I've decided to begin to a diet from today, and we'll see results after a week. 

1st day - fish
2nd day - vegetables
3d day - chicken
4th day - cereals
5th day - cottage cheese
6th day - fruits

Today is my first day of the diet, and I bought Alaska pollack to eat - it's nice, actually I rarely eat fish, though I love it! I've cooked a fish soup, and it tastes rather good, so I don't think it will be hard to keep on this diet. I really want to look well on my graduation!!! On two previous graduations - school and bachelor's - I looked like a piggy in dreadful clothes...I'm on the left:

Actually that summer my weight was 43 kilo, but I still looked fat. I can't even understand how could this be like that?! 

I'm really depressed now. All my childhood I was a very thin girl, and now to be much fatter means to me the end of my life _ _#) I can't feel myself self-confidence, I feel like a shit...And I don't want to go to any ceremomies, any graduations, because don't want to look like this piggy...But there's no way, because my mother and sister are coming soon to be on my graduation ceremony. Arghhh, this is so damned thing...I'm not happy at all now...